Okay, so I want to start documenting my life. As boring or interesting as it may get.. At least i try to keep it entertaining ;) and I'll write in a hopefully enjoyable way (:

So okay back to the other day, I finally saw Diego after a while. I really did miss the schmuck.. And I guess if he's making the effort to see me, he must've missed me too.. Or maybe he was just bored.. I dunno, either way I was happy and I had fun. And I guess that's what's truly important. But anyway, I went to meet him at the 7-eleven next to my house on Silverado Trail. I told him I;d wait inside cause of loitering laws and shit. Also cause I just didn't want to stand around like a derp outside. I bought gum and cigars while waiting for him. Also a black lighter cause I lost all of mine; that and my mom got ahold of them and took them away. And then while I was looking at the sunglasses, I saw him walk by outside and I decided to try and hide. But he had already seen me. Oh well, I still hid. And he just walked over to me smiling, until I came out from my obvious hiding spot and went over to hug him. I was really relieved he was here cause it smelled like a damn port-a-potty in there and I just wanted to leave. But first I bought him a bag of hot cheetos and a red bull, which thankfully I had enough for. Gat damn though, I just needed to get out of that damn store (and really just off of planet earth cause there's stinky dirty people everywhere). I'm sorry, I don't mean to come off as a misanthropist; I don't hate anyone, I have a good heart. I just dislike people for the way they are, ultimately. Does that make sense? Oh well. Getting sidetracked here, but I tend to do that.. After we left, we started walking towards the river trail and I asked what he wanted to do. I tend to talk kind of quietly around him, but then I get excited and my voice gets a little louder. We both decided to just walk on the river trail and we saw this cat trying to go after a squirrel. It was cute, but we couldn't tell if it was trying to play around with it or attack and kill it. Diego asked "Should we break it up or let nature take its course?" I liked that, it showed his kind heart and also his acceptance and acknowledgement of nature. We had a good conversation on the way there; I made him smile and laugh a few times. And I hope I make him feel comfortable around me; I just want him to feel happy and secure. I want him to feel cared for and like he can rely on me. But I just don't like feeling unappreciated. I wish people didn't make me feel that way. People really don't know how to value. Well we talked about school and how corrupt the education system is and how its mainly a business that leaves students in ridiculous debt and it doesn't even guarantee them a job. And how Diego said that he doesn't want to waste his time with that and how he doesn't want to go to school to get a career he doesn't even want. I love how well we relate and how he actually acknowledges the things I do. I told him what I tend to tell people a lot, but I also hesitated and told him if he was really prepared to hear what I had to say because of how passionately against it I am. I told him about how there's ways around that and how I want to find the loopholes. How you don't have to do shit the traditional way, and you can stray from the norm. Be the odd one out; the one that makes a difference for the better. And I'm an ambitious rebel. We got to the Nob Hill (Snob Hill) plaza and walked around; I told Diego "ladies first" and let him walk in front of me into the store. Diego pointed out a guy and I commented on his jewfro and then I tried to stray him away from the alcohol aisle. Diego bought a jamba juice that tasted like strawberry jolly ranchers; he kept insisting on sharing it with me. You know, sharing drinks is kind of like an indirect kiss and I just felt a little awkward. But I'm just generally awkward. We talked about marijuana and different strains, and sexuality and how it's partly a mentality, and I told him how I hate being labeled or boxed in; he seemed pretty interested in what I had to say. He told me how he really likes this cannabis strain named CBD and how strong it hits you. We also talked about how ridiculous and annoying people are, and how people watching can be entertaining sometimes. After that we walked back on the same trail and he opened up to em about his past and different things and we joked and laughed about how our mom's are gossipers and we both call them 'chismosas.' I took him back to my place and introduced him to Shiloh Shadow. Shiloh warmed up to him pretty quick and let him pet him. He was even purring for him, what a sweet boy. I took Diego over down by the river next to the apartments. I told him about little Lucipurr and her tragic death. I showed him where I buried her. I told him about the bear traps that druggies leave. We went inside and he showed me some videos on Youtube about cats in boxes; it was pretty damn adorable. Later we walked to the park. Poor Diego, I gave him a work out. We sat on a bench and talked for a bit. Then we went to Alta Heights and saw this group of ladies working out and they were doing such silly work out moves, like the donkey kick and spidey jumps. Then they were laying on their backs and spreading their legs. Me and Diego couldn't help but laugh and try imitating them; but we started doing our own thing. Diego started twerking and I started doing some weird dance moves. We were just laughing and smiling and it felt great; it was like a relief. Then we got on the swings for a bit and Diego randomly told me how he asked his ex boyfriend "Is it in yet?" during sex. And I replied with (okay maybe this was a bit mean but whatever) "You sure he just didn't have a small dick?" Yeah maybe it was a stab at his boyfriend, but I'm not fond of any of them. I stupidly asked "So is that what it feels like? I mean, is it hard to tell when it's in?" I sounded like such a noob, but oh well that's what I am.. We played around on the park and tried going on this weird seesaw and then got on this thing that went in circles and I tried to push him and I ended up falling back when I let go. Diego found a kid's backpack and wanted to return it to the classroom. He didn't have to do that, but he did and that said a lot about his character. We walked back home cause I wanted to feed him and he needed to be back home around 6 pm. I told him he didn't have to walk so close to the edge of the sidewalk and he just looked up at me without saying anything. I told him how I feel comfortable around him and don't feel the need to be talking all the time because sometimes someone's presence is enough. Just being around someone I enjoy being around is enough for me. And how a lot of people are just obnoxious and loud and talk your ear off with mindless conversation. Also I have to mention that I was quite surprised; Diego didn't really talk much about dick and dudes this time (his formerly favorite topics). I also noticed a change in his aura and attitude and just his whole presence in general; it was a bit odd cause I'm not used to it, but it wasn't bad. It was actually quite nice. This annoying fat lady stopped us at 7-eleven and was being loud and obnoxious, what I had just mentioned and Diego and her talked for about five minutes as I just stood off to the side awkwardly. It was a bit rude, but it wasn't his fault. She approached him and just kept talking to him about what the fuck ever. I also noticed she was missing teeth. I told Diego that it was awkward and I felt like I should just keep walking.. All he replied with was "Awww.. No." I fed him when we got to my place; it was those noodles with shrimp from a day before. I wanted to be honest and told him they were leftovers; then I felt bad giving him that but there wasn't much else and I really wanted him to try that. I had saved it specially for him a day before, even when I really wanted to eat it. But I find myself making sacrifices for the people I really care about, even just something small like that. I just wish I could've given him something fresh and homemade. Oh well, next time (if there is one).. I don't mean to be pessimistic, but it really seems like it goes hand in hand with being realistic. He said he enjoyed it; he ate it with soy sauce and I gave him guava juice. I finished his jamba juice. Then I gave him a box of chocolates; home made chocolates. I wanted to buy and give him this beanie and sweater from Target but I didn't have the money. My mom wouldn't let me take the car as usual, so she drove him home. I made them listen to Slipknot on the way there. Diego said he liked that so I kept it on. Before got out of the car to leave, I told him to take care. But I really mean it when I say it; I just don't say it as a parting phrase like many people do. But I don't know how seriously he takes that. After that I went home and was being very critical of myself. Well he did say he had fun, especially at the park. So I guess I shouldn't worry so much. Oh and also I have to mention how I really enjoyed how he seemed to know so much and be aware of how fucked up the government is and how this world works and how processed food is filled with all these chemicals and all that. I was quite impressed; I'm really glad he's not a brainwashed society robot. He told me how he was part of the green party. Also he said he likes soy milk too and how his mom won't buy it for him and just buys cow milk. He honestly kept surprising me cause he kept saying stuff like "Oh I like that too and oh I was just listening to that song too" I told him it made me feel like we were in sync or something. It was weird.

My Goals

I want to start doing vlogs, but I need a good video camera like a Go Pro or something.

I want to start reading and researching more on stuff I'm passionate about, like biology etc. Read online; find legit websites with genuine information. Check out books at the library etc.

So I want to start documenting my life in some way; both through video and text. 

Work on cooking/baking skills. Emphasize on it as an art form as well and not just a basic survival skill. Make up my own recipes (video game/cartoon themed etc).

Fuck the corrupt system; I don't agree with it and therefore I refuse to help perpetuate it. Find ways around the system. Write them down, act on them.

"I wish you could be here all the time. But either way you're on my mind.." 

Ahh wait.. Ah ah ah wait.. Baby baby babe wait....

Mhm

To do list (that hopefully I'll get around to doing).... >.>

Take interesting pictures- funny creative captions....

I like owls and stuff.. bats too.. chameleons, cool reptiles, froggy frogs.... I need money to support my kids aka my pets (oh. that sounded bad. but I meant it literally....) 0.0 awkward... anyway, I love Keroppi, Resident Evil series.. I like fairies and nymphs, drums drums and more drums, you know like rock my life and I'll rock your sex life ;D lol also I make some damn good pancakes yo. and other food. but i ish quite proud of my pancakes.. >.<

Also hi, I'm your boyfriend. Err I'll be your girlfriend and your boyfriend. xD ;) Oh no I look like a weird hairless guy. with tits. xD

Live Life Better

I want to make every day worth it, I want to go to sleep at the end of every day with a feeling of accomplishment and a smile on my face. And not just for the mere fact that I was able to make it through another day, no that is so minimal when I am capable of so much more. I am capable of creation, of goodness, of success. And I want to prove that, I want to continue to prove it.

So I have devised a method of influencing productivity and consistency: a five basic goals system. Add this concept to your daily routine and you will see difference. You will feel much more accomplished.

Five ideas for promoting productivity:

-Finish something (a book, a drawing, a chore, etc.)

-Create something (even just happiness in someone else)

-Do something healthy (make a homemade meal, go for a walk)

-Do a good deed (pick up litter, help someone,etc.)

-Organize something (your schedule, clutter, etc. structure and balance is important)

Forever Childhood

Adulting usually sucks, I love running around and using my imagination. Also the toy section at stores still is my favorite aisle.... Haha hey, I have no shame! smile emoticon I love action figures and posing them around lol I had a collection of figures from horror movies like Jason and Freddy Krueger. And I usually only watch cartoons, fuck 'reality tv' and all those obnoxious shows that dumb you down. The Rugrats and Scooby Doo is my shit. wink emoticon Like why the hell is some of the funnest stuff considered 'just for kids.' Mental stimulation is crucial, no wonder there's a lot of dumb boring people out there..

The Royal Tea Party

~The Royal Tea Party~
Featuring:
-Emily Autumn as Prince Emile
-Francis The Frog as Prince Emile (after he gets turned into a frog)
-Esme as The Sneaky Witch
-Kirsten as The poor peasant girl (shy and kind-hearted)
-Camille as The wealthy girl (conceited and shallow)
-Candice as The party girl (bubbly and outgoing)
-Carrie as The nice girl (sweet and friendly)
-Emmett as The pianist (performs at the tea party)
-The Mice Sisters as themselves
-Bon Bon The Cat as himself

Prince Emile: *Sighs* I'll never find a princess....
Bon Bon: *Knocks over stack of mail* and climbs on Prince Emile's lap
Prince Emile: *A tea ad grabs his attention* Oh, what's this? *He picks it up* "Tea Lovers: If you're looking for a tea that satisifies, try our new chamomile tea with an exquisite taste you're sure to love! (picture of a cup of tea with a daisy next to it)
Hmmm *Prince Emile reads the ad as he holds it* Hey, I know! I'll throw a tea party and invite all the girls of the kingdom and whoever impresses me with the best dish can win a date with me!
Bon Bon: *Meows in agreement*
Prince Emile: *signs an invitation and folds it closed* There! That should be enough!
*Hands them to his butler* Make sure this gets to the post office by today.
Butler: *Nods head and takes off*
Next morning: Kirsten wakes up to a knock on the door. "Special delivery from the prince" She hears the postman yell out. "The prince? *she looks confused* Coming!" *she runs to open the door of the small little cottage she lives in*
Postman: *Hands her the letter* "It's for a royal tea party"
Kirsten: *Still confused* There must be a mistake! Are you sure this is for me?
Postman: The prince has set up a tea party inviting all the girls of the kingdom, your one requirement is to bring a dish that you cook yourself and if you can impress him you might win a date with him. Pretty lucky, huh? Well, I got to go now, good luck! *He takes off*
Kirsten: *Panics* Oh no, what will I make? And what will I wear?
~Meanwhile~
Camille: *Opens invitation and reads excitedly* Wow, I'm so excited! I know just what to make! *Runs to bake*
~Back at the castle~
*Camera pans in through fancy hallway and zooms in on the pianist, playing away.*
*Then the camera pans in on Prince Emile as he sits waiting at the table*
Prince Emile: They should be here soon.. It was kind of a last minute arrangement (he worries) *but just then Camille walks into the dining room area carring a delicious looking dessert and wearing a beautiful dress. "Oh wow.."
Camille: *Places her dish down on the table* Hello, Prince Emile. It's truly an honor to be in your prescence. Is it alright if I put this here?
Prince Emile: Yes, that's fine. And no need to feel intimidated, I am actually quite intimidated myself I must admit... You're very gorgeous.
Camille: Wow, thank you! *Camille blushes*
-Just then Kirsten walks in all shy looking, carrying some cupcakes and wearing these bland looking rags.
Kirsten: Hello Prince Emile, it's quite a privilige to be here in your honor. I brought these cupcakes.
Prince Emile: *Looks at Kirsten for a while and then smiles* Oh sure, just set them down on the table and have a seat. The appetizers should be here soon. Help yourself to some tea while you wait.
Kirsten: *sits down after placing cupcakes on table and speaks up quietly* Thank you.
Suddenly, two more nice dressed girls walk in carrying dishes and walk over to the table.
-From the corner: The Mice Sisters whisper to each other, peeking out from their mouse hole in the wall, "Mmm, looks like we'll be enjoying lots of yummy crumbs tonight sis.." (one mouse says to the other)
A strange girl walks in wearing a hood and looking suspicious, she quickly walks up to Prince Emile and stands there quietly.
Prince Emile: Um, can I help you? Did you come to the tea party? If so-
She suddenly takes out a wand and casts a spell on him and then quickly runs out before they can stop her.
Prince Emile has been transformed into a frog.
OR----
The sneaky little witch finds out about the tea party and knowing she doesn;t stand a chance with the prince with all those pretty girls she's competing with she decides to ruin the tea party instead and stop Prince Emile from finding his princess.
While Prince Emile is out collecting flowers, a strange woman comes out of nowhere and casts a curse on him.
"Oh no, what has happened to me?' he croaks.
"If I can't have you, then no one else will!" She quickly takes off.
Prince Emile hops inside and calls out for his butler "Sir
"You got cursed with the frog curse! The only way to break it is to have a true love's kiss. But Prince Emile, you don't even have a princess."
"That was the point of the tea party. But now, it'll be ruined.."
"You can still have the tea party, we can explain everything to them. And the girl you fall in love with can kiss you and break the curse."
"I don't think anyone wants to kiss slimy frog lips.." He sighs...
-That afternoon-
Prince Emile sits at the table waiting for his guests looking quite sad..
Just then Camille walks in carrying a delicious lookng dish and wearing a beautiful dress. She walks over to the table and notices the frog sitting there.
"Oh, Prince Emile has a pet frog?" She places her dish down on the table.
"I am Prince Emile," the frog responds, look at my crown. This morning I woke up and was out in my garden when this evil witch broke in and  cast a curse on me."
"Oh dear.." Camille looks concerned, well that is quite unfortunate..
Suddenly Kirsten walks in carrying some cupcakes

Eat Smart: Energizing Your Body Naturally

Sometimes all it takes is that spark of motivation, but sometimes you need help getting there; you need a little boost.

If you find yourself feeling unmotivated and tired throughout the day, then you may just need an energy boost. But you may also be lacking in a crucial area, such as getting a good night's sleep. So make sure to diagnose your situation carefully so you can target each problem.

Energize your body naturally~

Avoid those energy drinks for fueling energy. The effect is short lived and you just end up feeling even more tired and down than before. This is because energy drinks have high amounts of caffeine and sugar which travels quickly through your bloodstream which gives you a surge of energy with a short lifespan. The side effects can include: insomnia, irregular heart beats, seizures, and an increased rate of heart attacks. It's overall best to stay away from them. And make sure to not mix them with alcohol, it can be dangerous and it's better to be safe than sorry.

Adequate sleep is another essential for maintaining good energy levels, so make sure to get a good night's sleep so your body can recover and regenearte so you'll be feeling energized and attentive for the day.

We also get energy from the sun! So make sure to get your daily dose of sunlight, but don't forget that sun screen to protect you from those harmful UV rays.

But one of the most important ways to get healthy naturally is by consuming healthy foods. Foods have natural healing powers and many benefits, so be a smart cookie about it and choose the right ones.

Healthy energy boosting foods:

Whole grains: Your body's main source of fuel comes from carbohydrates, so it makes sense that whole grains (which contain carbs) are a great source for energy. Opt for healthy grains, like whole wheat pasta, brown rice, and quinoa.

-Water: This is the essential for life, we are made of water and we require water to live. But water also has a variety of health benefits that come along with it like helping maintain good energy levels. Water transports all of the nutrients in the blood that are used for energy.And it also helps carry/wash out the waste that builds up in our bodies that depletes our energy. It regulates body temperature and helps the body metabolize the food that is converted to energy. Therefore, it truly is an essential for many bodily functions and maintaining good health. It is recommended that people drink 8-10 cups every day.

Fruit: All fruit contains natural sugars that can help increase your energy levels. They also contain vital nutrients and vitamins that are essential to thrive, so in general they are necessary for consumption. They are high in antioxidants, contribute to lowering cholesterol, help keep digestion regular, lower your risk of high blood pressure and prevent strokes, as well as many other benefits for your body. You can also reap many benefits from aroma therapy (which I will go more into depth later), and citrus scents can actually help boost energy levels too. So if you're feeling low on energy, peel and orange and inhale the scent before consuming.

-Spicy herbs and peppers: Consuming peppers and foods seasoned with spicy herbs can actually speed up your metabolism with very few calories. It's great for weight loss and bossting your energy levels. They are also great mood lifters.

-Almonds (raw): Almonds contain monounsaturated fats that provide omega 3's and 6's, which help keep the mind alert. So if you need an energy boosting and help with concentration, perhaps you need to keep your mind on something specific like following through with your daily exercise routine, then almonds would be an ideal snack. They are a good source of both protein and healthy fats that help balance sugar levels. And on top of all of that, they can even reduce the risk of heart disease.

-Coffee: Coffee beans have a lot of health benefits, they are a natural source of caffeine which can increase the number of fatty acids in the bloodstream and give you an energy boost. Just make sure that the coffee you're drinking isn't packed with high amounts of sugar, because there is a lot of coffee out on the market that can actually prove to be more bad than good for you. Other bonus benefits include lowering the risk of Type 2 Diabetes, Alzheimers, and Parkinsons. It may also aid in weight loss and can even help fight off depression. However, remember that moderation is key, too much coffee can be harmful.

-Green vegetables: One cause of low energy may be depleted iron levels; green vegetables like broccoli, spinach, and other dark leafy greens are full of iron. They are a great source of many vital nutrients which can improve your overall health. So make sure to have your daily serving of vegetables.

-Dark chocolate: Chocolate, preferably dark (which is more beneficial), can actually help give you a good source of energy. The bioactive compounds, like tyramine and phenlethylamine, found in chocolate have been scientifically proven to elevating your energy levels. It can also improve longevity and help fight anemia. On the side of that, chocolate also has high amounts of cancer-fighting antioxidants. So all of you chocolate lovers out there have something to be proud about while eating chocolate.

-Oats: In addition to being high in fiber and vitamin B, oats are low on the glycemic index and can deliver a stream of energy to your body. These nutrients can help turn carbs into energy. So adding oats to your cookies and other potentially sugary foods can be a healthy addition. Having a bowl of oatmeal for breakfast can be a great way to start off your day energized. Opt to make your own fresh oats and enhance them by adding fresh fruit and raw honey.

-Eggs: The yolk in eggs are rich in Vitamins B and D. These vitamins help convert food into energy as well as contribute to maintaining strong bones. They have a high protein content and contain all of the 9 essential amino acids.Eggs also help build and repair body tissue and cells. They can help fight off infections and keep your body fluids in balance too. Eggs are overall a healthy addition to any meal, especially if you're looking to naturally boost your energy.
-Peanuts/Peanut butter

Remember, your health and how you feel is depended upon what you put into your body. As they say, "You are what you eat." So here at The Smart Cookie, we emphasize on eating healthy and making smart choices when it comes to food so that you can be your best.

So don't be a dumb donut, be a smart cookie and eat a smart meal that will actually benefit and help you get on the path to becoming a better you.